Sunday, August 21, 2011

Even when i'm broken i will worship, even when i'm broken i will sing, even when i'm broken i will trust You, oh God, you are my King!

 A couple days ago i found out the reasons that i have not been feeling great the past few months. Some of the results did not suprise me, but some were shocking to say the least. As many of you know i have been battling sickness' most of my life, i've had everything you could ever imagine. But this past May my little body starting getting very sick, and has gotten worse and worse ever since.

 As most of you read, i got a million tests earlier this summer, testing everything from cancer to lupus, and parasites to weird bacterias, to ending up getting a colonoscopy and nothing really being found. This was all very hard to say the least, but nothing showed up, we were searching for an answer to the questions that seemed impossible to be answered. As time went on, my body just kept telling me, something isn't right and we had to get it figured out.

 I finally decided to go to a holistic/natureopathic doctor, and he did about a million tests on me, everything from hair folicle testing, to spit, testing food allergies, hormones, how my body is working, just everyhing, and on friday we sat down with him to discuss the results...okay hold onto your seats, by the end of this, your jaws will be on the ground.

 Okay so first, the food allergy testing only showed that i am only a little bit allergic to gluten, the others came back okay, but i still have to start this thing called the elimination diet, basically i take gluten, milk, egg and soy out of my diet for a few weeks and start adding them back in one by one to see if i get sick or not, to make sure the testing wasn't at fault.

Second, my adrenal glands have kinda slowed way down, and have decided they don't really want to work anymore. This isn't good because the adrenal glands kind of control everything in your body, keep everything in balance and i need them to function properly so i can be healthy and normal. so theres a thing in your adrenal glands and for normal people the levels are like 5 to 10 and mine is at a 2, which means its functioning but at a very slow rate. i am starting a supplement to get those back on track

Third, my body has decided that it doensn't want to help make probiotics anymore, those are the healthy bacteria that your body needs....i think...hahah i can't remember all the details. but anyways, because i have always been so sick and have taken so many antibiotics to fight off infections and such, the probiotics that my body is supposed to be producing have decided to take a little vacation, i dont know where they are, but if it's sunny i'd like to go visit, but until they get back i will be taking probiotic supplements.

 Fourth, they found strep and yeast in my stomache, now i'm not exactly sure what that means, but i do know it means infection, and since there is nothing to fight it off, and since my adrenal glands aren't functioning, and since my stomache has been the source of the problem, all these little infections are settling in my tummy for now, i guess it must be nice in there, because none of them seem to want to leave. Another thing is, they found this thing call saprophytic fungi, so i have some sort of other infection in my gut area and so hopefully with the probiotics and a few other things i'll mention later all of this will get undercontrol.

Fifth, theres this one immune system level, and i dont know exactly what its for other than it shows your health, and for a normal person its like 400-900, and mine was like 190, which means my immune system is just so low, and now really ready to battle anything.

Sixth, lastly...hahah kinda...there is this thing in your adrenal glands that is produced and it is called cortisol, and that is the thing that gets you up in the morning, gives you energy, and as the day goes on the level drops and by bedtime it should be low enough so you can sleep, well since my adrenal glands decided to take a nap, my levels are completely switched around, they are low in the morning and higher at night, which is like no wonder i wanna sleep all day and stay up all night, by body is completely confused and totally done fighting.

I'm going to be taking the probiotics for my body to help infection, a supplement to get my adrenal glands back on track, and then just a multivitamin type thing to help my body get enough nutrients, and no i dont just get to take one, i get to take these multiple times a day, such fun! Because basically due to all the infection, i'm not absorbing anything anymore. all my vitamin levels were extremely low & some weren't even on the charts.

I also will be starting a detox in about 2 weeks to try to rid my little sick system of all these horrible things, during that i will be taking all the normal vitamins plus like 6 or so other kinds because my body has finished fighting, it is worn out, and it needs some help to get back on track.

 In closing i would just like to share a few things. In no way do i write all this so everyone sits reads it, and is like "awww shelby im so sorry" no way at all, dont feel sorry for me, i write this because it's like my health diary, i write it so my family in other states or further can read it and know whats goin on, i write it because blogging is my release ( other than music) and i write because, if my story can help just one person in all the years i will do this, i will be fulfilled.

The past month or so i have been listening to the CD Broken Things by one of my favorite Christian artists Sarah Reeves, she is just so pure and easy to relate to that it is hard not to like her, well on one track all she does is read Psalm 139, and then halfway overtop she starts singing "cause even when i'm broken i will worship, even when i'm broken i will sing, even when i'm broken i will trust You, oh God, You are my King, You are FAITHFUL! YOU ARE FAITHFUL!" and there is just something about that, something about the power of the bible being spoken in such a pure manner and then her words singing over it. i will leave you with Psalm 139, read it, you wont be sorry.


Psalm 139

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
 You have searched me, LORD,
   and you know me.
 You know when I sit and when I rise;
   you perceive my thoughts from afar.
 You discern my going out and my lying down;
   you are familiar with all my ways.
 Before a word is on my tongue
   you, LORD, know it completely.
 You hem me in behind and before,
   and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
   too lofty for me to attain.
  Where can I go from your Spirit?
   Where can I flee from your presence?
 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
   if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
   if I settle on the far side of the sea,
 even there your hand will guide me,
   your right hand will hold me fast.
 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
   and the light become night around me,”
 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
   the night will shine like the day,
   for darkness is as light to you.
  For you created my inmost being;
   you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
   your works are wonderful,
   I know that full well.
 My frame was not hidden from you
   when I was made in the secret place,
   when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
   all the days ordained for me were written in your book
   before one of them came to be.
 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
   How vast is the sum of them!
 Were I to count them,
   they would outnumber the grains of sand—
   when I awake, I am still with you.
 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
   Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
 They speak of you with evil intent;
   your adversaries misuse your name.
 Do I not hate those who hate you, LORD,
   and abhor those who are in rebellion against you? 
 I have nothing but hatred for them;
   I count them my enemies.
 Search me, God, and know my heart;
   test me and know my anxious thoughts.
 See if there is any offensive way in me,
   and lead me in the way everlasting.


Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,

Shelby Elyse 

Monday, August 8, 2011

the waiting game

it's been a month since i got my labs done for allergy testing and such...the results are in and we are scheduling an appt for early next week...i am waiting knowing the Lord is in complete control. The weeks drag on, the sickness lingers but my spirit remains greatful for what i do have.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

This is just a stop on the way to where i'm going, i'm not afraid because i know, this is my temporary home.

The past 3 and a half weeks have been extremely difficult. The weeks have been filled with countless doctor visits, blood draws, visits to the lab, days in bed, and consistent weakness, tiredness, and feeling all around horrible. I have been tested for everything from leukemia to lupus, a parasite to chrons disease to e-coli, every blood test has been run, all my counts have been counted, they have taken every sample possible, and still, no one knows what is wrong, the sickness that is attacking my weakened body is a mystery. And the mystery is beginning to really weigh on me. There are mornings when i wake up and i think to myself "why should i pray? we aren't going to find out anything today, so why bother?" but then i am reminded immediately of my life verse. Psalm 46:5. But this is beginning to really take a toll on this little body of mine. my veins have been poked so many times that by now they are in hiding, and my hands are bruised and scared. My stomache feels as though someone has taken a shredder to the insides of it, and my body has absolutely no energy. Most days i get up, go to work, and just push through the days, counting the minutes until i get to go home and rest, but a lot of days i have had to miss work. I keep getting fevers and no one knows why, nothing is normal, everything i eat makes me sick, and when i dont eat i get sicker.
 It all started about 3 and a half weeks ago, on a sunday night, i was at my friends house and a bunch of us were eating dinner, and i got a really bad stomache ache, i went home and got very sick that night, and missed the next day of work. Tuesday and wednesday i felt a little better, and then thursday morning i woke up sick again, i went to work and came home on my lunch break, then went back to work, well that night i got very very sick, alarmingly sick, and the next morning we went to the pediatrician, immediately he sent me to Childrens to get labs drawn, and from there we went. The next week i missed monday-thursday of work. My mom and dad left for vacation that wednesday ( mom didnt want to leave me home sick, but i made her ) and thursday i went to a gastroenterologist. ( My big sister jordyn drove up and took me)  He sent me to childrens for labs and we scheduled a colonoscopy. All the labs from both doctors came back fine, nothing was showing up.
 Yesterday i had my colonoscopy, and they found out a few things, some of which are a little embarassing and which i wont mention. hahaha!!!!! but...at least we found out what is kindaaa-wrong. I have to stop eating dairy, i can't have any foods with corn syrup in it, and we will go from there. I got medicine for the one problem too which is good. The one issue is, we dont know why i keep running fevers, so today i went back to the pediatrician, i have to start keeping a fever journal and log morning and night what my temp is, and see if we notice any patterns. I also have to start taking probiotic tablets to hopefully start helping my immune system.
On the way home from the doctor today we passed my old health food store called Cappabianca's...we used to go there all the time, and decided to stop in, i am going to get a consultaion with the owner, she is a Christian and she helps people with all kinds of problems get on eating plans and get their bodies back on track. I figure if a rhuemetologist, gastroenterologist, and pediatrian can't help me, maybe this lady can. :)
Hopefully within the next couple weeks or months we will have everything figured out...for now, i lean on my Heavenly Father...for He is the ONLY one who can truly heal.

The Lord is the everlasting God, 
The creator of all the Earth, 
He never grows weak or weary, 
No one can measure the depths of His understanding, 
He gives power to the weak, and strength to the powerless, 
Even youth will become weak and tired, 
And young men will fall in exhaustion, 
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength, 
They will soar high on wings like eagles, 
They will run and not grow weary, 
They will walk and not faint,
-Lincoln Brewster (Everlasting God)


Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,


Shelby Elyse