Saturday, April 30, 2011

Day 34 - More Like Her

So my latest music obsession is miranda lambert, so here are the lyrics and link to my latest favorite song of hers!

More Like Her Video - Miranda Lambert



She's beautiful in her simple little way

She don't have too much to say when she gets mad
She understands she don't let go of anything
Even when the pain gets really bad
Guess I should've been more like that

You had it all for a pretty little while
And some how you made me smile when I was sad
You took a chance on a bruised and beaten heart
Then you realized you wanted what you had
I guess I should've been more like that

I should have held on to my pride
I should have never let you lie
I guess you got what you deserved
I guess I should've been more like her

Forgiving you, she's stronger than I am
You don't look much like a man from where I'm at
It's plain to see desperation showed it's truth
You love her and she loves you with all she has
I guess I should've been more like that

I should have held on to my pride
I should have never let you lie
I guess you got what you deserved
I guess I should've been more like her

She's beautiful in her simple, little way 

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Day 32 - What if Trials of This Life Are YOUR Mercies in Disguise...

 I have always tried to be the most positive of people. I am the girl with the smile on her face, laughing at everything, and sometimes too happy for people to handle. But lately there has been almost just enough heartache and suprises that have made my smile turn upside down a few times. As i have said before my life verse is Psalm 46:5 " God is within her, she will not fall; He will help her at break of day." This verse is something i repeat to myself on a daily basis. Nothing could be more true of this verse. I believe everyword in it, and every meaning that it holds. This verse it what keeps me going everyday, it helps me get through the day.

 The reality is, i may not fall...but i may stumble. I know this may sound crude to many, but it is the truth. God is not going to let me out of his sight, but he is going to let me walk on my own two feet. He is going to be with me always, but that doesn't mean that my life will be perfect. Life often throws things at me, or the people around me for that matter, that i think to myself "what is the point of this?" I sit here in this big world thinking...why should people have to suffer? I totally get that it is because we live in such a fallen world, but i absolutely hate it. I hate that people go through horrible things. I hate to see my friends crying, i hate to see my family sad, i just hate when people hurt. I believe that there is always a purpose, always a reason for suffering...I believe that God does not want us to suffer, but that He allows us to suffer because it will make us a better people, suffering leads to strength. I know this from experience. I totally believe with all my heart that if i had not gone through everything i did, i would not be the same person. Everything is a growing experience, everything makes me so much stronger. I guess i think to myself that i would rather it be me than anyone else. I hate to watch people suffer, it literally makes me feel like i am gunna throw up all over...i think most people feel this way though.

 Recently i have been going through the book of James in my morning devotions, i have found that is a great book of the bible, i've read bits and pieces of it before, but i have grown to love it more. Well a few days ago i read this, "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him." James 1:12  After i read it i just sat on my bed and felt so much peace. Ever since my brain surgery my daddy has called me "trooper" and while i would be totally embarassed and turn red in the cheeks when he would yell it down the hallways at cvca, i have grown to love it, it makes me feel special. Well, my dad doesnt call me that for no reason, it is because i have perservered, it has been a journey, there was much suffering, but i made it through, often with little complaining, mostly worrying, so now i am proud to be a trooper, haha. But in all seriousness, the verse really is incredible. 


 Also, recently i read the book HEAVEN IS FOR REAL by Todd Burpo  The story was incredible, he wrote about his son who had surgery and was around 4 at the time if i remember correctly, and he had supposedly died on the table for sometime because he remembered everything from Heaven, he saw his great grandpa who he had never met or known about, he talked to God and walked with Jesus, and could tell his parents exactly where they were sitting during the surgery because he was "watching over them." As i read the book i cried, and i thought to myself "Wow i want to go to heaven right now!" The picture seemed so clear, so perfect in everyway, i got so excited i read the whole thing in just a little over an hour. I read this in the midst of everything crazy that has been going on, and i just thought to myself how glorious it will be once i'm finally there. There will be no more Suffering, and to me, that is absolutely incredible! 

A few weeks ago I heard a song called Blessings by Laura Story, and i thought i'd share the lyrics with you...

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home,
It's not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise



 Im sorry if this post wasn't very clear or jumped around a lot, i really have had so much on my mind that i dont know how to get it all out clearly i guess. These are just little tidbits of my brain... But thanks for reading :)

Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,

Shelby Elyse

Monday, April 18, 2011

Day 31 - Tired

So today i have been completely exhausted. Yesterday i had a migrane and slept for most of the day, and today came the aftermath. People who don't get migranes will never understand what one actually feels like. Well its hard to explain...but it sucks! haha but today i just still felt sick to my stomache and stuff!
and i was completely exhausted still...and still am!
So i just slept and did homework and a music test online. Then chilled tonight mostly.
Now i'm talkin to my brother about ways to better my cupcake foundation...then its off to bed
2 Classes tomorrow...then spending time with mama...then haircut! WOOO!

Love,

Shelby Elyse

Psalm 46:5

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Day 30 - Someday We'll Know

dear 3 people who actually read my blog,
 i am truly sorry that i have not written for quite some time. life in the taylor house has been quite the zoo, i often like to think of big words to describe what is going on and lets just say its been a dibockle in more than 5 ways. I think if i make bullet points of updates and then go from there it should be much much easier.

1. Grandma - She is off the vent! So that is a giant PRAISE to our Jesus! But...yea there always comes a but in our world...she is still not doing very well. There is still some kind of blockage somewhere and the past week she's been sleeping all the time and becoming more and more unresponsive...at this point more and more tests are being run, and we are all just praying for answers. I've learned a harsh reality in my life and that is called "doctors are humans too." Doctors are supposed to be the life savers, they are supposed to know the answers...but sometimes they just do not know what to do. Sometimes they don't know what is wrong or how to help. I hate it...but it is truth! So all i know is that grandma is not doing the best she could be. I think it was a week or two ago my mom said to me "well if she ever gets better it's not gunna be the same, she wont be up and cooking all the time" and it hit me like a ton of bricks...in my head i'm thinking " no mom your crazy " but in my heart i'm thinking "this can't be happening." My grandma bought me my first cookbook "Gold Medal Flour ABC'S Of Cooking" I still use it today...it's all coffee stained and drawn all over but it is very special to me...grandma instilled in me my love for baking...so imagining her not being able to cook, that is a hard pill to swallow for sure. I know God is in control. I understand that this is in his plan and that i have no control over the outcome but i just wanna scream thinking about it. I want to know if she is in pain and she cant say ... its just not fun at all anymore!!! Reality = im terrified of losing her, but i do not want her to suffer. Alright i think that's enough on that...im feeling sad i need to feel happy! CONTINUE TO PRAY!

2. Seth - He's been in California for a few weeks now and he is super duper busy all the time...but he is doing well, stressed out at times...but continuing to get all his work done and still have time to chat with me some nights...i try not to bug him too often, but hey i'm the baby sister it's my job!

3. My Eye - So i have an appointment on the 18th of May with a Surgen at Akron Children's Hospital to see if i'm going to need surgery or not. My eye seems to get worse when i'm tired or stressed...but it kinda is bothersome a lot of the time now so we need to just see what we can do!

4. College - Officially going to Akron next year...super excited for a fresh new start....also i'm sooo stoked about Elly and Jessica coming too....it's gunna just be so much fun!

Someday We'll know why bad things happen and why good things happen...but for now...i sleep :)

Alrighty, well this is all i can think of right now...i put up lyrics to one of my new favorite songs right below this post so go check it out...and the link to the video

Blessed by my Heavenly Daddy,

Shelby Elyse 


Day 30 - Heart Like Mine

So I heard this song a few days ago, and i just love it. It just seemed so real. I put the link to the video up where she explains why she wrote it and stuff before she sings it. i've learned i love country music over the past few years and now i'm addicted...so enjoy!

Heart Like Mine - Miranda Lambert

I ain’t the kind you take home to mama
I ain’t the kind to wear no ring
Somehow I always get stronger
When I’m on my second drink

Even though I hate to admit it
Sometimes I smoke cigarettes
Christian folks say I should quit it
I just smile and say “God bless”

‘Cause I heard Jesus, He drank wine
And I bet we’d get along just fine
He could calm a storm and heal the blind
And I bet He’d understand a heart like mine

Daddy cried when he saw my tattoo
Said he’d love me anyway
My brother got the brains of the family
So I thought I’d learn to sing

‘Cause I heard Jesus, He drank wine
And I bet we’d get along just fine
He could calm a storm and heal the blind
And I bet He’d understand a heart like mine

I’ll fly away
From it all one day
I’ll fly away

These are the days that I will remember
When my name’s called on the roll
He’ll meet me with two long-stemmed glasses
Make a toast to me coming home

‘Cause I heard Jesus, He drank wine
And I bet we’d get along just fine
He could calm a storm and heal the blind
And I bet He’d understand a heart like mine

Oh, yes He would

Monday, April 4, 2011

Day 29 - I will rise

Been listening to the song I Will Rise by Chris Tomlin on repeat most of the morning. Its been a rough day already. I got a migrane at like 3 in the morning and couldn't fall back asleep and i kept getting the feeling i was gunna throw up but i couldnt. I had to do an online assignment for school this morning and that was no fun not feeling very good, plus the rainy day does not help. But i am trying to be in good spirits...i know the Lord has reasons for these migranes, its just that everytime i get one i just think "what if i have another brain tumor" i mean who wouldn't think straight to that after my whirlwind of a life. I find comfort in the fact that one day i will no longer have to deal with these horrible headaches. I thought i'd leave you with the lyrics to this song, they are inspiring to me.

There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say "It is well"

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

There's a day that's drawing near
When this darkness breaks to light
And the shadows disappear
And my faith shall be my eyes

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

And I hear the voice of many angels sing,
"Worthy is the Lamb"
And I hear the cry of every longing heart,
"Worthy is the Lamb"
And I hear the voice of many angels sing,
"Worthy is the Lamb"
And I hear the cry of every longing heart,
"Worthy is the Lamb"

And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise



My favorite line... "And my FAITH shall be my EYES" ... that gives me chills. Knowing that one day i will be standing in front of my wonderful Heavenly Father looking at Him ... i get teary eyed thinking about how wonderful Heaven is going to be. I can't wait to be reuinited with everyone i love!

Psalm 46:5

Shelby Elyse

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Day 28 - For Mama

So my mama was just gone for a week and now she is home and i am thrilled! I missed her like crazy...so in honor of her...and yes i realize i'm not getting married and i dont have a boyfriend, but the song is still awesome :)

Mama you taught me to do the right things
So now you have to let your baby fly
You've given me everything that I will need
To make it through this crazy thing called life
And I know you watch me grow up and always want whats best for me
And I think I found the answer to your prayers

And he is good, so good
He treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps 
No he's never gonna leave
So dont you worry about me
Dont you worry about me

Mama theres no way you'll ever lose me
And giving me away is not goodbye
As you watch me walk down to my future, I hope tears of joy are in your eyes

Cuz he is good, so good
He treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps 
No he's never gonna leave
So dont you worry about me
Dont you worry about me

And when I watch my little baby grow I'll only want whats best for her
And I hope she'll find the answer to my prayers
And that she'll say

He is good, so good
He treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps 
No he's never gonna leave
So dont you worry about me
Dont you worry about me

Mama dont you worry about me

Dont you worry about me


I love you mama!


xoxo


Shelby Elyse 

Friday, April 1, 2011

Please Pray

Please Pray for my grandma and my family today. Please pray for wisdom for the doctors and my family today, my dad, mom, and aunts are having a big meeting with my grandma's doctors today deciding the next course of action...also, please pray for healing for my grandma if that is God's will, and pray that she is not in pain. I am trying to stay positive and everything, but this whole process is beginning to weigh on all of us. I

was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

I believe in Miracles, I have seen them, and I have been called one. I believe the Lord can perform a miracle and heal my grandma, if it is in His will!
Please Join me in Prayer

God Bless,

xoxo

Shelby Elyse

Who I Am...Just Me

So lately i have been really reflecting on things that i could change about myself. I think "well maybe if i say this, than that person wont hate me..." or "maybe if i wear this than that girl will want to be my friend..." well i have come to the conclusion that this is NOT a good way of thinking and NOT a good idea. I will never be anyone but me! I think it is a take it or leave it kind of thing, yes i realize that i could probably work on not being so loud and decide that i should not be such a drama queen to gain attention sometimes...yea those are flaws but they do not change who i am.
WHO I AM
I am 5 feet tall. I have brown eyes. I have the curliest hair ever. I have the BEST family. My friends are incredible. I love the LORD with all my heart. I do daiily devotions. I am writing a book. I have an obsession with looking through old picture albums. I like passion fruit tea. I love coffee. I love cheeseburgers and chicken fingers and fries. I love stir fry vegetables. I sleep with a blankie. I have never been in love. I am a Justin Biber fan. I am an aspiring baker and i hope to have a food network show one day. I love shoes. did i mention i love shoes. I have almost every letter saved that has ever been written to me. I am a brain tumor survivor. I love big bows and headbands. I like hello kitty. I like rap. I love the rain and hate the snow. I like the smell of clean laundry and cake batter. I can't wait for Heaven it is going to be wonderful. I am very spunky and you have probably never met anyone like me. I scrapbook. My name means "little rock" I believe that i am put on this earth to lead people to the Lord through unusual ways. My brother, sister, & my cousin Kellie are my Hero's. My daddy is superman. My mama is my best friend. I wonder what a rainbow looks like from Heaven. I want to be on the Ellen show sometime. I love Rachael Ray. I have small feet. Well...that is all for now.
but...
Who I AM...

JUST ME!!!!

Blessings,

Shelby Elyse

Psalm 46:5