snow. rain. sunshine.
that is the forecast for today:::::welcome to ohio.
i'm excited to see what the spring holds, where i'll go, who i'll see.
im excited for ice cream and bike rides, easter and plane rides. so much will happen.
march is days away. last night i was up late, talking to my friend and it occurred to me.
8 years ago today i got my "headache" the one that lasted 5 days. the one that changed my life. i struggle to remember those days. but i still have foggy pictures in my mind.
today was a rainy day. i sat in bed. drank coffee. did my devotions. tried to convince my brain im not a crazy person. and that i just overanalyze situations. a lot. but hey i'm 21. what do you expect.
i woke up with a fever. but dont tell mom. she'll make me go to the doctor. and mom if you reading this. please dont make me go to the doctor. im good. not sick. totally fine. maybe.
fever was gone by about 1. wanna know something gross? i sweated it out a little and my feet got all stinky! hahah. ew. so then i showered. did a few things for school. had some lunch and off to class i went.
[ i tried to pull the brain tumor card on dad today. because i want my nose pierced. sadly. it didnt go as planned. i will try again tomorrow. ]
my evening consisted of burgers and broccoli. talks with the parents and watching the rachael ray show. i finished a song i've been writing for awhile, tonight. woah guys. i just used a comma. anyways. its called "twelve" ... meaning 12 years, 12 months, and 12 at night. maybe one day you will hear it on the radio. maybe not.
i finished my pediatric brain tumor scholarship application today and have it all in a polka dotted bubble mailer ready to send tomorrow. s/o to my bff elly for being my proof reader! fingers crossed i'll get some moolahhh.
im turning over a new leaf. trying to conquer something. you shall get no specifics blog readers but today my friend brittany gave me an B+ because i messed up once hahah. we shall see how tomorrow goes.
seth called me like 10 minutes ago. and we start talking about iphones and whatever else and then he laughs a little and tells me he's started a blog. his made this big long story and i was literally in tears laughing. idk where he comes up with this stuff. but basically. seth. i am looking forward to "the beauty in the rattle." ... and thanks for making me laugh. your the best brother ever ever ever. may come quick!
okay well i'm off to try to get some sleep. still not feeling awesome. and moms whole homeopathic medicine kick isn't exactly helping my cold.
oh. the forecast. it was right. its snowing now. so really::::welcome to ohio
love you all!
Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,
Shelby Elyse
"the God of angel armies is always by my side."
wow. what a statement. so true and yet so easily forgotten.
this is the first thing i read when i woke up this morning. tears filled my eyes. the last few weeks have been draining. more draining than i could have ever imagined. i have been filled with emotions of fear, anger, happiness, praise, sadness, love, and many more. none of these emotions are really alike so to say i have been overwhelmed would be an understatement. i have been reminded by many that God is in control. i too have spoken these words to friends over the past weeks. but it is easier to say it, then to live it. i know He is in total control, but sometimes it takes other words to truly believe it.
maybe i needed the picture of angels. maybe it helped me to find peace.
the picture in my mind when i hear angel armies is beautiful. i am excited to see them one day. i have always imagined angels to look a certain way. i feel like everyone has a different mental image of them. but i have always found it hard to imagine such a great number of angels, how beautiful they will look, and sound. i am excited for that part of heaven.
but to elaborate on the beginning and end of the statement. GOD IS ALWAYS BY MY SIDE. i have been told this for as long as i can remember. stories of the miraculous things He did in my life when i was born. miracles within my own family since then and miracles around me. they has always been a part of my life. miracles have. i have always believed in them. so isn't God ALWAYS being by my side a miracle in itself? i think so. i take great comfort in it. especially today. He brings me comfort in weeks like the past few. He heals my heart of fear and hurt. medicine could ever do this. trust me.
if i'm being honest today i am not feeling 100% me. my stomach is upset. my mind is racing. it's just an off day. im tired of waiting. and waiting. and waiting. i just want answers. so today i am just not sassy spunky shelby. i have been in bed since 9:30. this never happens. i hope tomorrow i am her again. but tonight i will fall asleep with peace. hopefully dream of angels. that would be wonderful.
if you are reading this ... i love you for that ... continue to pray.
I know Who goes before me I know Who stands behind. The God of angel armies
Is always by my side. The One who reigns forever He is a Friend of mine The God of angel armies Is always by my side. - Chris Tomlin.
Is always by my side. The One who reigns forever He is a Friend of mine The God of angel armies Is always by my side. - Chris Tomlin.
"When the servant of the man of God got up and went out early the next morning, an army with horses and chariots had surrounded the city. “Oh no, my lord! What shall we do?” the servant asked. "Don’t be afraid," the prophet answered. "Those who are with us are more than those who are with them." And Elisha prayed, "Open his eyes, Lord, so that he may see." Then the Lord opened the servant’s eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha."
- 2 Kings 6: 15-17
- 2 Kings 6: 15-17
Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,
Shelby Elyse