Monday, April 29, 2013

in the middle of the night...

sorry i've been gone. well not really life is crazy. but anyways i'm sure only like 4 people or less will read this soo...

oh also. i have 2 posts half done. both really important. but they shall continue to wait.

well...its april 29. at 1:19 am.

and the next 2 weeks are about to be a tornado of craziness.presentations.clinicals.exams.presentations.oh and did i mention exams?!


my glands are gigantic and i have a fever and feel like CRAP.

so please just say a quick prayer for me.

i have no time to get to the dr. till wednesday or so.


i'm just feeling very overwhelmed and anxious.

but i mean hey. things could be worse..


love ya'll

Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,

Shelby Elyse

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

mr. ed's wife.

mr. ed

mr. ed and his wife live across the street. they have lived there forever. i have known them since i was 5. but that's what i call them.

mr. ed and his wife. literally today was the first day in a long long time i heard mom and dad say her name.


joanne is going to meet Jesus soon.

she has been fighting cancer for a long time and she is about to meet our Savior

please be praying for her. and mr ed. for no pain. and plenty of peace.

so much in my life doesn't make sense unless it's in a song.

so i leave you with this. a beautiful one.

[ i look to YOU. i see the scars upon your hands. and hold the truth that when i can't you always can. and standing here beneath the shadow of the cross. i am overwhelmed that i keep finding open arms. ]

i love you all.

Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,

Shelby Elyse

p.s. tell your family you love them. life is so precious.

Monday, April 8, 2013

i gots a bug.


since friday in the middle of the night. which i guess was technically saturday.

this little lady has had the stomach flu.

i can't seem to shake the fever. && still can only drink fluids.

i just had a little bit of soup but my stomach is already hurting.

please pray for it to go away soon. i had to miss my clinical today and class.

forever Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,

Shelby Elyse

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

i'm only good at being young.

[ so scared of getting older...i'm only good at being young. ]
   - john mayer ( stop this train. )

maybe my favorite song lyric. ever.

maybe because it's exactly how i feel.

maybe it's how everyone some way.

i have found that growing up comes with fears. of the unexpected. and the expected.

i have found that it comes with the revealing that so much that i thought was true is not : : : people are not all nice and they will let you down. the easter bunny isn't real. the moon isn't made of cheese. grandpa did not walk up hill both ways to school. everything is not always gunna be okay, athough i wish it with all my heart. i can't do everything. and if you are in my backyard playing wiffle ball with daddy...there is crying in baseball. haha.

but if all of this isn't true. what is true? that is the scary part about growing up.

the unknown.

i am the baby of the family. by 7 years. and i love it. lets be real people. i am not meant to be a first born. i am fiesty and fierce. sassy and spunky. short and have a even shorter attention span. i was engineered to be the baby. obviously. i'm the baby of the taylor trio. i love that. my sister is my best friend and my brother is my hero. i love being the little sister.  but also the youngest cousin on both sides. trust me it has it's perks. ( like grandma still sending me money on every little occasion.) but it totally has it's downfalls. like being harassed at every holiday by all the cousins and uncles. about everything. another downfall is the inevitable "you aren't old enough." ((when i was little they had "cousins night out" and by the time i was old enough to go they just stopped it. what a coincidence!))

i am the typical youngest. i like to hang out with my parents. i still sleep with a blanket. and i still haven't moved out. i'm probably digging myself a hole. because none of these things seem too appealing. but... ... ...

i love being the youngest...don't get me wrong. i want to be a grown up. and be successful. and have a family and a great career. and do all those grown-up things. but i dont wanna get old. i want to stay young. kinda like peter pan.

i think getting old is different than growing up.

somedays i find that i am probably very fearful of what is to come healthwise. the future holds so many unknowns for me. we've been told my whole life by so many doctors "we're not sure." not sure of what will come. will my heart murmur get worse? can i have kids? will my tumor grow back? will my endocrine and lymphatic systems work well? these are all things we are so unsure about. and i assosciate them with getting old.

so i would just really like to stay young.

i'm really good at it. being young.

i bet you are too.

Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,

 Shelby Elyse