it's sunday. it's snowing.
i spent most of the day sitting in my room. watching the snow. lots on my mind. writing. reading. writing more. flooded with ideas. the snow is falling faster. i look out my window, see the blizzard. and then i remember it. the drawing. the snowman drawing. he drew it 6 years ago. 6 years. thats long. i miss him.
i grab my memory box out of my closet. i find it. the pile of drawings. and i find the snowman. this drawing, it inspired a whole line of Christmas stuff for St. Judes Children's Research Hospital. he was an artist. he was 7. his name was Ian.
the last day i saw him. it was a day similar to today. it was 2007. i went to school with mom because we had a teachers in service. when i got there. he wasn't there. i was so sad. i was so looking forward to spending the day with the little guy. he came late. i was over the moon. we laughed and laughed that day. it was january. we shared rocknes cheese burgers and fries. and then he ate a whole tray of bagel bites. this might be why i love rocknes so much. i'm not sure.
i went to his kindergarten class. we laughed and laughed. he sat in his special giant comfy chair. he was tired. i could see it in his eyes. his crossed eyes. we walked down the hall to get my mom. i remember he tripped. i held his hand. he laughed and said "my dumb tumor makes me trip somedays." i remember the day so well. his laugh had me in tears. he was soo hungry. we ate everything we could find. his mom came to get him. i hugged him goodbye.
never did i realize that would be the last day i laughed with him. the last hug i gave him. and that goodbye meant "i'll see you in heaven"
so the snow. it makes me miss little man. the artist. the comedian. it makes me miss ian.
i can't wait to see you again soon little dude. tell jesus hi for me. thanks for the snow.
Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,