yesterday my family friend allie found out that yet again, her cancer is not in remission. i have spoke of her often on my blog. but this time i am speaking with a heavy heart, asking you to pray and pray again for her and her young family. i met them years ago when adam was my bible teacher freshman year, he was new to cvca and soon became one of my favorite people. allie and adam have 3 little girls; paige, hayleigh and mollie. the girls are every kind of precious. please pray that their mommy will be healed. she needs to be in remission to get her 2nd bone marrow transplant. and she isn't. please pray for them in the days ahead as they decide the next steps in this journey they are on.
i know what it is like to get bad news. to think the best and the outcome is the worst. i also know that the Lord is good, and whatever the outcomes may be, good or bad, they are always in His will for our lives. i remember when i got diagnosed with my brain tumor, my first questions were "am i going to die?" "will i be the same and remember people" and then the inevitable "are you going to shave alllll my hair off?" these questions were answered with my doctor's precious voice shaking "i will try my best to help you live shelby" "we are going to be as careful as possible, there is always risk, we hope you will remember, you should be the same" and "nooo i'll keep as much hair as possible. thats great hair." only later on did i realize that indeed, i would never be the same. i think that is the point of suffering. i've been talking to my friend about the movie a walk to remember the past few days, and i love the like that says "without suffering there would be no compassion." this quote speaks 100000 truths. if i had never gone through what i had, i dont think i would have the heart i do for others with battles.
i also remember my pastor coming over that night to pray with me and he softly spoke these words that i have never forgotten. he prayed for healing, and that i wouldnt be afraid and then he said we pray that through this unimaginable circumstance, others will come to know you, and grow closer to You. in my 13 year old brain, i didnt understand the whole impact of what he was asking, but now i do. the Lord can take the worst circumstances, and turn them to beauty. i have no idea but i pray that through my beautiful battle someone has come to know the Lord, or their faith has grown. i also pray that about Allie. she is battling a monster, called leukemia, but in the Lord's perfect plan, i pray that her journey is helping bring others to Christ.
My friend Natalie always says, "God is God and God is Good." i love this. even when we can't feel Him, He is still here, forever, unchanging. and He is still good.
Please, take time to read Allie's Blog. <---- right there it is! click it!
and as you read, pray.
You hold my every moment You calm my raging sea You walk with me through fire and heal all my disease. I trust in You I trust in You. I believe You're my healer I believe You are all I need I believe. I believe You're my portion. I believe You're more than enough for me Jesus, You're all I need. Nothing is impossible for You. Nothing is impossible Nothing is impossible for You You hold my world in Your hands. I believe You're my healer I believe You are all I need Oh yes You are, yes You are. I believe You're my portion Lord, I believe You're more than enough for me. Jesus You're all I need.
- KARI JOBE
"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness. "The LORD is my portion," says my soul, therefore i will hope in Him." - Lamentations 3: 22-24
I love you all!
Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,