Tuesday, January 22, 2013

not for a moment will YOU forsake me.


that is what i have chosen to describe this as. The doctors can say i might have had a virus, or perhaps it was a bit of a lab error, but i believe that through the power of prayer, the Lord had my body start producing white cells this week.

I am left full of joy and so much thankfulness on this cold January night. We aren't completely out of the woods, as a few tests need to come back still, but for now i have joy.

The doctor called at 2pm today. He was so excited to tell me the news. He said my white count levels have come up drastically and although they are still in low ranges, he isn't as afraid anymore. He said the tests that aren't back yet will hopefully tell us what was going on, and if my body has trouble producing WBCs.

He started to laugh a little about halfway through our conversation and said this "Shelby, i know you are relieved, and im going to be totally honest with you, i am too. I honestly didn't know what we were going to do, because i was puzzled, i literally had no idea what was wrong and why your body was doing this. I am so happy for you."

I mean if a doctor can be that honest with me, i think i'll keep him.

He continued to tell me that i need to get pneumonia preventative shots since my antibodies dont fight it, and we would go from there. Once the rest of the bloodwork is in, we will meet and talk over all the results, get my shots and go from there.

He said that he wants to do the bloodwork again in a few months, to make sure i am okay. We still have no idea why my counts were so low. Probably a virus, maybe a lab error, we may never know. But he wants to stay on top of things because obviously my little body has a mind of her own.

I asked a few questions, we laughed about how great of news this is, he said see you soon, we hung up. I ran into the living room to tell mom the great news and she threw up her hands and said "thank you JESUS!" and started crying. And i have cried so much over the past week, i just stood there and laughed and said "mommmm stop it!!!" but she said she was just too happy!! It was such great news. We were trying to stay so positive the past few days, but we had to be realistic, in case i wasn't okay. Today was awesome.

Tonight, i had dinner with an amazing friend and sister in Christ, Andrea. She is one of my mentor's and i honestly dont know what i'd do without her! We celebrated at my favorite restaurant Rockne's!

You were reaching through the storm, walking on the water. even when I could not see ithe middle of it all when I thought You were a thousand miles away not for a moment did You forsake me. You were singing in the dark
whispering Your promise even when I could not hear, I was held in Your arms carried for a thousand miles to show
not for a moment did You forsake me. a
nd every step every breath you are there every tear every cry every prayer
In my heart at my worst when my world falls down. not for a moment will You forsake me."

       - Meredith Andrews 

"But as for me, i will ALWAYS have hope." - Psalm 71:14

Thank you for all the prayers. I felt them. They worked. the Lord is FAITHFUL. Tonight i am comforted.

I love you all. So much! 

Blessed by a Heavenly Daddy,

Shelby Elyse Taylor 


  1. Well Praise the Lord, our Wonderful God who has had you and your doctor right in the palm of His hand. He loves you, loves you, loves you more than you will ever know. You are a miracle!

  2. Love this song. May have to post these lyrics on my blog someday too. Waiting for a miracle ;) God loves you so much Shelb. Rejoicing with you!!