Day 12 - I think its ok to cry

So Seth is for sure moving to California. In 2 weeks. Like i said a few days ago, i couldn't be more proud of him, and i know this is where God wants him, but i am just feeling overwhelmed.
I dont want to cry, because i want to be strong for him, but i find myself just wanting to scream "DONT GO!!!! PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME!!!!" I wish with every ounce of my being that he could just stay in Ohio.
Tonight we talked and he said "shelbs we've conquered being apart, we know we can do it and still be fine..." That i totally agree with, i get it. But the fact is, California is very very far. He lived in South Carolina for a year, and yes that was far, but California, it's like a world away. I am just struggling.
I feel as though i need to just go with the flow, which is not easy for me to do. But i will give it the good old try.
All i know is that the Lord is in control and God is good. That is all i can stand on.
I know also that Seth is going to California for a reason, and though i may not see it right now, i'll understand later.
Ok thats all...wishing i could sleep...but i can't.

xoxo

Shelby Elyse



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